Expectations

Expectations have been and will always be a powerful thing. They shape how you view things and people, but most importantly they shape you as a person. I was adopted into a family of devout Christians who loved to work hard in school and in sports. I'm the youngest of five, so naturally they would expect nothing different from the youngest. While I did try hard in sports, the problem is when it came to trying in school and church. I'm not sure if I didn't know how important trying in school is or if I just didn't care, but I realized my mistake and know that it is a good expectation. The expectation that I hated was the religious role I was supposed to fill. Forcing me to spend my time studying a filled me with resentment for my church and my parents. Both of these put pressure on my relationship with my parent's and led to arguments that affected us in ways i didn't like. I'm not saying their expectation for me was unreasonable or wrong, but i do know that it made things hard sometimes.